This IS life...... right???

I didnt go to my hs prom.
Didn’t go to any school dance.
I have never been invited.
Still haven’t had the first day of accredited college.
I have one friend and he lives across the country.
My friends on fb are just aquaintences from hs.
I have never been invited to a birthday party.
I have never been invited to a Christmas party.
I have never been invited to a Halloween party.
So far, the money my aquaintences owe me over the years rounds up to $15k.
I have never been anyone’s best man at a wedding.
I was a groomsman once, to fill in at last moment due to an illness.
My mother hated me.
My younger brother hates everyone.
My older brother hated me until my younger brother screwed him over beyond forgiveness. Then I became the favorite brother.
For father’s day I was given last minute gifts while my people spent hours on a gift for my son’s mom.
I purchased groceries and made everyone else dinner for fathers day after listening to countless people at work talk about how much they love their dad or significant other and was going to prepare dinner or take them out.
I talk too much.
I care too much according to most people.

Funny thing is… after I realize that in reality I really am quite invisible to the world, I still remain deeply confident in myself.

I’m sure this probably sounds self loathing. But its more about rising above being a ghost to people. Still maintaining a ton of self worth. And being amazing in the process. It hurts…… bad. I cry often, but I look at what I do have and move forward.

2 days ago